Jane's blog.

It is really hard to feign ignorance, having to go pretend that such things never happened to you. But i had to. So I kept my fingers cross and my hopes up high, setting out a brand new road for a brand new-self . Why wouldn't things stop there, WHY? Why must this sickening life continue failing me, bombarding me with the billion dollar "why didn't you??" questions. Sickening questions, questions I myself can never find answers to. But each time, I continue telling myself that surely if I were to try hard enough, my breakthrough would come, all the pain would cease and everything would be proven worthwhile. But no, it doesn't. The harder I try, the harder I fall. And each time I fall, my life gets drained out of me a little bit more. more..more.more..For sure there will come a day where nothing would be left. Would you be happier then. Will I be happier then.